Complex Algorithm: Our Hubris

       Not surprisingly this blog about space, our place in the universe, complex emotions, and morality would come to this cross road of the human hubris. As a species that has now come to find itself at the top of every food chain, curing diseases, creating weapons of mass destruction, and pondering the nurturing nature of god/gods. It is not surprising to understand why we once assumed that the sun revolved around us in a geocentric pattern, that the world ended past the developed world somewhere in the atlantic ocean, or that distant stars were some form of ornamentation created for the ascetic pleasing of humans. It wasn't until the 16th century when Nicholaus Copernicus published "De Revolutionibus Orbium Coelestium"or "On the revolution of heavenly spheres" in which we as a people questioned whether our place within the center of the heavens. Copernicus calculated with great accuracy the orbits of the planets and their path taken around the sun. This was by far one of the greatest jabs taken at the ego of humans for no longer was the solar system created for us but rather they we are apart of the universe. Copernicus was not motivated to make people feel less of themselves, but rather the strict curiosity that most astronomers come to ponder. 

    Soon after (by about a hundred years) a child would come to change the very nature of how our human hubris viewed the natural world and it's relevance to the cosmos. His name was Johannes Kepler, whose name would soon come to be bore on the first planetary man hunt for a new earth. Kepler was the first person to incorporate the basis of integral calculus to calculate with better accuracy than his predecessors the orbits of the planets and the sun's axial tilt in space. Kepler as well founded celestial mechanics as apparent in his publication "Stereometrica Doliorum" and the first natural laws of space that were both verifiable, but also testable to a distinctly fine degree. Kepler elevated the minds of the human species to where prior Copernicus made the observation to define the Helio-Centric, but Johannes Kepler made the claim testable to all people only imploring our place in the universe all the more compelling.

      At the pinnacle of this human enlightenment a baby was born on Christmas day whom would come to gain millions of followers and his message of the very existence of human nature to echo on for eons. His work would eventually come to be redrafted for the new age of people, but his message all the more pure. Sir Isaac Newton one of the greatest men to have ever come to existence, his work would come define modern physics and the foundations of science. Sir Isaac Newton in his pondering of planetary orbits was poised with the question "Why are the orbits of the planets elliptical" to which Newton would take a couple months to work out, he then returned to his peers and responded "The orbits are actually quite conic in nature" "Sir to how did you come to this conclusion?" To which one of the greatest replies ever uttered was profused "I would have to explain integrential and indifferntial calculus to you all". Sir Isaac Newton within those months created these branches of calculus in order to explain these orbits soon after he turned 26. Newton is on the greatest men to ever live.

    I can explain to you all of the greatest men in history and their works, but i believe that it is monumental for any one of us to come to the overwhelming conclusion that there is no one looking after us, that purpose is not pre-decided, that our destinies are a by product of our own personal journey and decisions. Our hubris is destructive. Yes at times we use it to justify actions, but these actions are typical of the most heinous acts provided by humans. When we as a people decided to put this confidence behind us and approach every situation with equal consciousness and endearment i know that we will begin to look towards the cosmos and not the dirt. It's a bit difficult for me to romanticize the negatives of human hubris because i don't know i can't describe this predisposition that i have towards it for i am a victim to the same principles. In our obscurity, we attempt to understand existence and lend to it ideas engulfed in fear. We make myths and legends that terrify us, that provide ego, that motivate us to harm one another, but Science. Science is the inspiration to which we understand our place in an objective way. This form of understanding is empowering. It doesn't leave room to interpretation and rather than concede that "we" it's designers are the gods of understanding, it underscores our responsibility to treat one another fairly. Science puts us in our place without any subjective reasoning to it.

   Our idea of this endeared place in the universe is challenged everyday as our knowledge expands. 

This picture was taken by Carolyn Porco and her imaging team at NASA on the Casini Saturn mission of "The pale blue dot". This image reminds us that we are a small planet in a distant universe in a local group in the virgo super cluster in an ever expanding universe. Help is not coming. So we must decide to help ourselves.

Love, Evil, Hope, Kindness, Science.
We are all humans under the void.    
   

      

Complex Algorithm: Love

The social utility and biological evolutionary utility for it to this day are unknown, granted most complex emotions are not but there is a distinct resonance to us humans when we consider love. While most people will feel love most of us will never understand it, but perhaps it's better off this way. Mabye the human ability to love was some form of external purpose we provided ourselves to give meaning outside of hunting and foraging. Or mabye the life long companionship provided by "falling in love" gives way to a whole new light of understanding. Very likely I'm sure of it.

Your probably thinking "wow he can even talk about love in such a computated way", but allow me to relate to you.

To my limited memory in the summer of 2011 I embarked on was has prolonged itself to be the most baffling emotional quarrel of my life. Dramatic. I should become a screen writer. This literal embarkation sailed from Fort Lauderdale to tropical islands all over the caribbean they call these vessels "cruises" or whatever that means, but it was on this boat the "Carnival Dream" where I would come to find this emotion love. While ambling around the deck of this boat with a cousin of mine Sebastian, mind you Sebastian was a social chameleon and could fare with interactions alot better than I could, we passed 2 girls one of which was a white blue eyed fare blonde, but the other the site of which behooved me. I couldn't comprehend why this girl made me feel so indistinctly apprehensive. Her confident stride rivaled that of run way models, but her warm personality emitted and was visibly breath taking. Sebastian organized and made me feel less awkward.

I describe her not with attributive connotations implying beauty, because to this day she leaves me in lack of words.

After conversing for 6 days, sharing our first kiss in her stateroom, and my jealous ego getting the better of me we said our goodbyes unsure if we would see each other again.
The night before we left I recalled her telling me that she was staying at a hotel rather close to my home. The emotional withdrawal I felt after leaving her left me on a journey to see her. I called the reception desk at which I gave my best girl impression asking for her name, they were quick to transfer me to her room and before I could make it out I was on the phone with her mother conspiring my secrecy I hung the phone up.
After receiving confirmation as to where she was staying I left with 3 of my closest friends on our skate boards and bikes to see her (I believe now is a good time to mention I was in 8th grade) after traversing across highway intersections, hotel security, and exhausting distances we finally arrived. The 9.3 mile trip, I checked belle ;), was going to pay off for I would see the girl to which my overwhelming emotions toiled for. She came outside to see, the hotel kicked me out and wouldn't allow me to stay on the property unless I was a guest, her confident stride still the same but her smile just as large as ever. After saying goodbye for one last time we kissed the night away in hopes of never forgetting the last 7 days.

I'm sure this is the 2nd most romantic story concerning Leo, a cruise in December,  and a lackluster desire for a girl far out of his league. Seemingly alittle more mild.

Now almost 5 years later i came to visit her. The emotions i felt that night bike riding to the hotel and seeing her on the cruise deck rekindled and I have fallen for her all over again. During my visit I was awkward, quiet, a poor conversationalist, and over bearing (I'm sure), but she still smiled at me as if we never left each other that night.

One night while in her hometown in Iowa, she took me to a secluded soccer field (in perspective to orlando my hometown secluded was more than a proper choice of words) in which the stars and planets no longer were shrouded by the light pollution of my city. It was breath taking, prior to this I told her about my future endeavors regarding astrobiology my study of choice, so she definitely delivered. We laid under the stars with a blanket over us and the cold only forcing tighter grips.

This moment takes precedent over every moment I have ever experienced as the most beautiful, emotionally complex, and breathtaking moment in my life.

The thing with having an occupation regarding science is the what ifs and questions regarding your future research. The unknowns in science makes me excited, but being with her was something I knew. Seemingly my whole life was filled with uncertainties, but with her I feel secure because I am certain of
being in love with her.  Science being the love of my life took a back seat when I was with her. 

And so I will not bother to dissect love or understand it because I have all the assurances I need. I have yet to regard to the distance between Florida and Iowa because I don't care for it. Perhaps one of the few times in my life where caring about the facts didn't matter. She makes the distance minoot and miniscule.

As a planet we are insignificant in regards to the cosmos, but the beauty behind humans is unrivaled by light years. Our thoughts, perceptions, and emotions cannot be challenged and so explore and conquer.

The aggregate of our hopes and sorrows are universal in size. The moral wanning of our combined intellect leads us in directions far more reaching than any physical limitation.

Know this, we are essentially the universe attempting to understand itself, that fact alone leaves me to always believe in the significance of humans as a species and not as a insignificant side attraction in the cosmos.

Syd you make me happier than words can describe. You make being a socially awkward smart ass seem easier. My happiest moments have been with you, you make science less scarey, and you believe I'll end up in space i care for you so much. The only words to describe my feelings sadly are 3 words, but I believe they are the universe in size.

I love you. Forever Belle.

Love, Evil, Hope, Kindness, Science.

We are all humans under the void.

A Frivolous Motive.

Here we are,

You've made it! Congratulations, you have chosen to stick around in spite of my annoying attempt at intelligence.

Allow me to introduce myself, for lack of better words I am perceptive. My interactions with my fellow humans is tailored and mapped out. Whenever I choose to engage in conversation I change my personality to better suit the person I am exchanging words with. I have found that while I am me, I am not myself to others. People may describe that as fake, but I see it as perceptive. To build stronger connections with people I choose to tell them what they want to hear, what they want to feel, what they want me to be.

Here conversations with you are not subject to that change. I don't know you which will let you better know me, the real me.

I am a know it all.
I am a male.
I am short.
I am far from the ideal guy.
But I know what the ideal guy is.
I am an imitation of that guy.
A poor one at that.
I am an environmentalist.
Not a hippe.
I am science.

As I said before I am science. I am a series of algorithms, from my interactions with loved ones to people I have known for 2 minutes. I have come to the underlying understanding that the people who best know me are you and people I have met for 2 minutes.

I fear that one day someone will see my algorithmic persona, but in that you are that someone. 

My motive for writing this is to expose myself to you. I want to stop being these algorithms and become me Leo.

Under the blue void I am unknown to the world minuscule in size and impact, but I am larger than life to myself and you should be as well. I am real. Not a artificially intelligent robot. Not a computer. 

Love, Science, Hope, Kindness, Evil

We are humans under the void. And I am me

*This is a footnote i have chosen to add a year after this post. After reading my previous post (such as this one) i have come to the understanding that i sound  extremely computed and pretentious. I promise i am a light hearted individual. I am just attempting to reinterpret the understandings i have come to in life and would like to convey my thoughts to the outside world in a way that does not offend or sound snobby. My friends outside of this blog have told me i have a history of poor debate ethics, because it's hard for me to understand both sides but on a blog I'm not arguing so forth these are just some of my brain droppings. Some of which happen to end up on this blog.

An Eventful Journey.

Hello,

As of 10:33 I am beginning a journey with you, you who are reading are going to travel the depths of our understanding, pretty shallow for some of us. I recognize I am asking alot of you already, but who knows mabye you or I might learn something from this experience.  Nevertheless we will embark on an exploration of understanding and as such I must be blunt in order to filter forth the right people to hear my thoughts.

I am attempting intelligence.
I don't believe in a higher power.
I am science and arrogant.
I am a progressive liberal.
I believe in love and evil.
I can admit my faults in spite of my arrogance.
I am a hopeless romantic.
I believe Love to be an interpretation.

Now that our preliminary assessment of basic character is established, now you can decide whether or not you choose to listen. I am not asking for a judgment, but rather i do ask you make an assessment of myself on your own.
Choose you do then our journey will continue.

I will explain myself thoroughly. I am attempting intelligence. For me to say attempting is to establish that neither you nor I have means of great intelligence and that is perfectly fine, because I am not asking for intelligence from you rather imagination and rationality.  And is that not what ultimately creates our intelligence? A blend of imagination and rationality?

I am a hopeless romantic. My desire for an occupational future is clouded by my lackluster desire for love. I will tell you I have fallen in love recently, but we will get to that.

And so we embark.

After this blog post look towards the void and understand that at 11:02 someone else is trying to conversate past a superficial level. We are both under the void, which unless you are an astronaut currently orbiting our planet you are here and able to relate to this post, but if you are an astronaut reading this post I am in lack of words for my admiration.

Love, Science, Hope, Kindness, Evil.

We are humans living under the void.